2012 scares the shit out of me.
It’s not because of the whole “world coming to an end” Mayan calendar thing. I’m not worried about that.
2012 scares the shit out of me because I’m taking some huge leaps of faith.
I’m taking some chances, and I’m betting on my success.
You may think I’m practiced at this. You may think I’m a pro.
If you did, you’d be wrong.
I’ve always been cautious, careful, and calculated.
I minimize risks.
I create plans and backup plans and backup-backup plans.
But for 2012, things are going to be different.
There’s going to be something big.
Something huge.
Something grand.
Something world-changing.
All of the risks can’t be mitigated. A plan would simply be a distraction.
I’m trying something new.
I’m trusting my intuition to point me where I need to go.
I’m trusting my gut to tell me what decisions to make.
I’m trusting my inner child to tell me when it’s time to play and rest.
I’m trusting my wise self to tell me when I need to make a change.
I’m trusting my creativity to conjure up some incredible ideas.
I’m trusting my friends with my deepest secrets.
I’m trusting my dog to remind me to goof off.
I’m trusting my body to tell me how to care for it.
And I’m trusting you will be beside me the whole time.
Maybe you’ll let me down.
Maybe my dog will get tired.
Maybe my friends will move away.
And maybe the money will run out.
But whatever happens, it’s the path I’m supposed to take.
Because I know.
Because I trust.
You’ll see.
2012 is going to be my best year yet.
And it still scares the shit out of me.
Marissa says
Go for it Jenny! You inspired me to make 2012 scary/amazing too!! You rock!
Jenny Shih says
Thanks, Marissa! Look forward to seeing you doing amazing things in 2012, too!
Beth Cougler Blom says
Jenny thanks for this post. As usual you’re totally inspiring. I think it’s time for me to create some big scary stretch goals for myself for 2012 too. I shared this post on my Facebook page to give you some promo. Love what you do!
Jenny Shih says
Happy that it inspired you, Beth. Thanks for your generosity in sharing on Facebook–I appreciate it!
I’d love to hear what stretch goals you have planned for 2012. It’s gonna be a great year for a lot of people. I can feel it already.
Diane Kirby says
I love the idea of scary stretching!!! Thanks!
Jenny Shih says
It’s my favorite way to do it 🙂
sarah says
Jenny, I love this post. I keep getting the message to “move into my fear,” so thanks for clinching it. I think it might be a good idea to ask myself, daily, “what are you afraid of?” and then move closer to THAT – be curious about it and know that it’s like a heavy, wet, cold blanket covering the gem that is ME!!!
Jenny Shih says
Yay, Sarah! Yes–move into your fear! Otherwise, it stays there. It’s a funny Catch-22!
Can’t wait to see where you go in 2012!
Martha says
Yep. Me, too. Scared shitless. However, as you say, intuition trumps reason sometimes. There’s no going back. My cape is out of the closet and I’ve jumped. Can’t wait to see where both of us land. Thanks for using your gifts for good, Jenny Shih. You rock. Just sayin…
Jenny Shih says
Woo-hoo, Martha! We can be scared and rock it together.
Can’t wait to see that cape. Send me a picture. I think your dog needs one, too.
rasz says
Great post and I am in with the rest of you! I know it’s a huge leap of faith but without taking it, 2012 would just become one huge “what-if?”….and I have had too many years left with that question that I refuse to have one more! Thank you Jenny!
Jenny Shih says
Here’s to your leaps of faith and no “what if” moments, Rasz! Woo-hooo!!
lavonzell nicholson says
Thank your for this. I think I am really looking forward to 2012 being a great year! The details are a bit fuzzy but my gut tells me it will be okay. I plan to try some things and definitely allow myself to enjoy life a little more.
Jenny Shih says
Listening to your gut is always wise, especially when it says “it will be okay.” And you certainly deserve some time to enjoy life a bit more–you’ve done some amazing things in the past year. Look forward to watching you do even more amazing things in the year to come. Thanks for being her, Lavonzell!
Wendy says
Love the “cape out of the closet” scenario.
I’m there.
the past 3 years have been very difficult for me physically but i choose to have my creative juices continue to flow. I look forward to sharing my progress with you Jenny.
And yes since the world has not ended 🙂 I think we’ll all be OK.
A cousin of mine always says (no matter how hard things can become)
“wonderful things are happening”!
Stephanie says
I soooooo love this post it says everything that I’m feeling and it brought a huge smile to my face…Thanks Jenny for your inspiration and yes 2012 scares the shit out of me but for once i’m in love with this scary feeling!
Jenny Shih says
Woo-hooo, Stephanie! You’re welcome for the inspiration and congrats on being okay being scared. That’s how we change the world.